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Too Late to Say Goodbye November 7, 2012

Filed under: Fiction,Life — themagicofthoughts @ 10:58 pm
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They stood watching each other from a distance, neither knowing how to bridge the distance between them. Each action would take them closer to the final step, they both hesitated, neither wanting to be the first one.

She closed her eyes and silently prayed she would have the strength to hold back her tears. The winter breeze fluttered through her hair, he held back from going over and tucking them behind her ears. It was going to be harder than he’d thought. Just the sight of her made his resolve weaker but he knew he couldn’t risk that anymore. It was decided and had to be done.

She shivered against the cold wind, and pulled her white fur overcoat closer to her body. Today, I have to be strong, she thought. Gathering herself together, she took took a deep breath and moved forward. Their eyes met as he looked up at her, and she quickly looked away, not wanting him to see the pain she was trying so hard to hide.

As she walked towards him, he took a step forward. He held out his arms as she reached him, embracing her close to himself. She felt at home in his arms, his body seemed natural next to hers. She could smell his intoxicating perfume, the smell that signified “him”. She tried her best to stay composed, but her emotions finally overtook her. The tears started to stream down her cheek, soaking his sweater where she rested her head. It wasn’t going to be easy. She’d known that all along, but she’d thought she would be stronger than this. The memories started to flood her mind, all the happy moments, the smiles and laughter, the love between them, and everything they’d shared.

He held her face in his hands and looked down at her, wiping away the tears that stained her cheeks. It’s going to be okay, he said to her. He didn’t sound convinced himself, she could see the anguish in his eyes, the hurt he was trying to hide. She nodded in acceptance. This was it. It was finally over. It was time to say goodbye.

As he let her go, she felt her entire world move away with him. What was she going to do? How would she survive another day? But, she smiled at him. She had to be strong. For both of them. He kissed her on the forehead, their last kiss, their last touch. He walked back towards his car, his steps slow and heavy. As he got into the car, he looked back at her. She kept watching, trying to memorize his face, his deep brown eyes,  his perfect smile, the small stubble on his chin.

The car engine sputtered to life, interrupting her thoughts. As he drove away from her, she felt something inside her die. Tears flooded her eyes, she felt weak in the knees. As his car faded into the distance, she whispered to herself, it’s too late to say goodbye.


Because you’re Worth It ! May 24, 2012

Filed under: Life — themagicofthoughts @ 12:40 pm
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When you look at me,
My beauty feels worthwhile.

When you smile at me,
My happiness feels worthwhile.

When our eyes meet,
My presence feels worthwhile.

When you touch me,
My love feels worthwhile.

When you hold me,
My existence feels worthwhile.

Because with you by my side,
no matter what happens,
My life feels worthwhile.



Wash away the memories May 29, 2011

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What is the most difficult thing that keeps us from moving on in life ?

It’s the memories, the moments that have been so beautiful that can’t let you forget the person in question or the painful trauma that keeps haunting you day and night.

The question that I’m pondering on is that if I had a choice to erase all my memories, especially all the bad ones, would I actually do it ? I think not. Because though it may help me forget the painful memories of my life, won’t I be missing out on the wisdom that I gained from it ? Today, I’m a product of what life has given me, good times and the bad ones. And all these experiences have made me a wiser person.

The truth is that each person we meet, unleashes in us a part of us that may not even be known to us. And it is through different people, that we get to discover the true us. We may move on in life, leave some people behind, knowingly or unknowingly, but as we move forward, we take with us a small part of each of them.

Sitting on a random day, memories often flood our minds, making us reminisce of times gone by, and though these thoughts may bring a smile to our face, deep down, the sadness of losing those happy moments are unavoidable. But, instead of delving into the not so happy aspects, why not smile and be truly happy without any inhibitions? For it is only when we are completely at peace with what we are, and what has gone by, that we can achieve inner peace. And when you think of a special person whose importance may have faded along with time and responsibilities, why not just pick up the phone and tell them you still care ?

To all the people who have touched my life, a big thank you for helping me discover who I am and for being a part of my life, no matter how long or short. And for people who I may have hurt along the way, forgive me for I am human too.

To conclude is a quote by Henry Miller that resonates with the same feeling –

The only thing we never get enough of is love; and the only thing we never give enough of is love

So, spread the love and let’s make this world a happier place !