Where I can be myself

It’s OKAY to NOT BE OKAY ! July 17, 2019

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It’s always easy to speak about gratitude, the more you give, the more you’ll receive, you should be grateful for what  you have, etc etc. But I’d like to be very honest and say, you can’t be positive and happy and grateful 100% of the time ! I was on a gratitude roller coaster and I loved how it made me feel, but I gradually derailed and there was a point where no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t practice gratitude.

I think the main reason was that we need some quality alone time to introspect and be grateful for all the good things in our lives, and the not so good, too. For me, the turning point was when a month after having my second child, I lost my mother in law to cancer. Having two children under two to care for, the responsibility of an entire household and the grief that comes with losing a loved one just threw me miles away from the gratitude party. I wasn’t myself after just having a cesarean  and recovering, had a baby constantly (it felt like it was 24/7 at the time) latched on, I had body image issues because I’d gained so much weight, the list is pretty much endless.

I just couldn’t practice gratitude! And I was a fan of The Secret and The Magic and I used to do my gratitude journal first thing in the morning, and it worked for me. But, where I was now, it just didn’t make any sense anymore. I tried to practice gratitude but it was of no use, and I realised that sometimes, it’s okay to just let go. It’s okay to not be a 100% version of yourself. Because, although it’s not easy to understand and come to terms with it, you have to feel that low in life to rise back up. There are instances in life when rather than following a certain path and way of life, you just have to let it all go and trust where life is taking you.

So, if today, life isn’t working out for you in any way and you could use a little help, just know that it’s okay and it will get better! Just take a deep breath and believe in yourself, because you’re a fighter and you’re stronger than whatever you’re going through ! Have faith in the higher powers and know that He is looking out for you, today and always ! And if you need, ask for help, reach out, be it just talking about it, getting a shoulder to cry on or even reaching out for support ! Remember, it’s okay and you’ve got this ! ❤️


Fear – what holds you back . . . January 28, 2018

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What is fear ? Is it real or just something you’re imagining ?

I think that fear is the number one emotion that rules our lives. You don’t say what’s in your heart because you fear you’ll hurt someone you love. You hold on to a miserable job because you’re scared you’re not good enough to get a better job. You don’t speak up in public because you doubt yourself and think you’ll make a fool of yourselves. You don’t share your dreams because you’re scared people will laugh at you. You don’t follow your dream because you doubt if it’s even real.

All these fears are essential and actually overcoming these fears is what gives you the adrenaline rush to take the next step. Because, when you conquer these fears you realise that luck and destiny are actually on your side and it’s entirely up to you how you win your way to reach your dream !

No dream is too big or small, and no action you take is huge or miniature, every step you take is an achievement.

Life is what it is, there is no guarantee for anything. So just take a deep breath, smile and believe in yourself. Conquer your fears and live in each moment, because it isn’t the destination that you’ll eventually remember, its the journey that’s going to be etched in your memory forever !

Love and peace ❤️


You have to have a Dream March 26, 2013

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“You have to have a dream so you can get up in the morning.” – Billy Wilder

Are you a morning person or are you one of the below ?




I LOVE mornings ! You could say that I’m a morning person ! If I wake up early, my day goes off pretty well. 🙂 Sure, I do have days where you have to drag me out of bed at 12 PM, but then who doesn’t love sleep, right ? 😛

Here are the top 5 reason I love mornings (and waking up early):


In today’s busy and technology infested world, there isn’t a time of day (or night) when people aren’t calling / mailing / texting you (That’s probably why I sleep with my phone on Airplane Mode). I’m pretty sure not too many people would go to the pains of waking up at 6 AM to speak to you !

Basically, it’s a time when I can just be with myself, relax and ponder.




Jogging is my favorite form of exercise. Plug in you headphones, listen to the music you love, and feel the fresh air as you jog / run / walk with the sun rising along with you. Heavenly it is, believe me !




I try my best to pray five times a day, but the peace and serenity I get from my morning prayers is unbeatable. It makes me calm and prepares me for all the challenges I have to face in the day.

Morning Prayer



An extra 5-10 minutes in the morning are ideal to plan the day that lies ahead. I like to think of all that I have to get done, from the most exciting to the most boring tasks of the day. Then, I prioritize them and plan how to go about accomplishing them. Just knowing what you have to get done in the day gives you a head-start and makes it even easier.

to do list



Early mornings will automatically make you hungrier at an earlier time, and I love taking out time to fix myself a delicious yet healthy breakfast. Having the time to enjoy your breakfast rather than stuffing it down your throat really makes a difference !



If you’re inspired and want to wake up early now, here are some tips for you ! 🙂

How to Wake up EARLY



And you think you’re really ALIVE ? March 18, 2013

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So, here’s how it goes. I’m 25, happily married a month ago, been working for more than 3 years and just living my life. Perfect, you’d say, right ?

But, the story’s a bit different from nearby. I have a job, YES. I don’t hate my job, YES. I’m grateful I have work to go to everyday and a paycheck that comes around every month, YES. But, is this what I REALLY want ?

I read The Four Hour Workweek by Timothy Ferris, and I loved how he said that the opposite of happiness isn’t being sad, it’s being bored. Because, till you’re not really EXCITED about what you do, you can’t be 100% HAPPY !

I think the problem is that I have dreams, but I’m not too sure of them myself. If someone asked me today, what exactly I see myself doing, I’d probably be a bunch of excuses and “ifs” and “buts”. Point being, I don’t really know what I want myself. Whose fault? Mine, of course.

I know that what I’m doing is not what I want to be doing my whole life, and I have a vague idea of I want to be doing, but I’m still not 100% clear of what it is.


So, five steps I’m taking to work on that(and you can do as well if you’re sailing in the same boat):


Dreams are free, they don’t cost anything except your imagination. It is only when you have dreams that you can achieve them. They’re the one thing that can keep you alive, no matter how messed up things around you are !


You have a dream? Great! Visualize what you want, be clear. If you yourself are not sure of what you want, you’ll never get there !


Believe in yourself ! We are at times our worst critics and tend to bring ourselves down. Boost your confidence by being your own support.


Socialize with people, especially positive ones! Lend an ear to what others have to say, but at the end of the day, you are the best judge of what works for you.

Listen, filter, and apply !


Look around yourself, and be happy for the small and big gifts LIFE has given you !

Express gratitude, feel it in yourself !

Be happy and spread joys to others around you as well ! 🙂


THE BEST IN ME ! March 8, 2013

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To be so strong that nothing can disturb my peace of mind.
To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person I meet.
To make all my friends feel that there is something worth while in them.
To look at the sunny side of everything and make my optimism come true.
To think only of the BEST, to work only for the BEST
and to expect only the BEST.
To be just as enthusiastic about the success of
others as I am about my own.
To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the
greater achievements of the future.
To wear a cheerful expression at all times and give a SMILE
to every living creature I meet.
To give so much time to improving myself that I
have no time to criticize others.
To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear,
and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.
To think well of myself and to proclaim this fact to the world,
not in loud word, but in great deeds.
To LIVE in the faith that the whole world is on my side,
–Christian D. Larson

Too Late to Say Goodbye November 7, 2012

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They stood watching each other from a distance, neither knowing how to bridge the distance between them. Each action would take them closer to the final step, they both hesitated, neither wanting to be the first one.

She closed her eyes and silently prayed she would have the strength to hold back her tears. The winter breeze fluttered through her hair, he held back from going over and tucking them behind her ears. It was going to be harder than he’d thought. Just the sight of her made his resolve weaker but he knew he couldn’t risk that anymore. It was decided and had to be done.

She shivered against the cold wind, and pulled her white fur overcoat closer to her body. Today, I have to be strong, she thought. Gathering herself together, she took took a deep breath and moved forward. Their eyes met as he looked up at her, and she quickly looked away, not wanting him to see the pain she was trying so hard to hide.

As she walked towards him, he took a step forward. He held out his arms as she reached him, embracing her close to himself. She felt at home in his arms, his body seemed natural next to hers. She could smell his intoxicating perfume, the smell that signified “him”. She tried her best to stay composed, but her emotions finally overtook her. The tears started to stream down her cheek, soaking his sweater where she rested her head. It wasn’t going to be easy. She’d known that all along, but she’d thought she would be stronger than this. The memories started to flood her mind, all the happy moments, the smiles and laughter, the love between them, and everything they’d shared.

He held her face in his hands and looked down at her, wiping away the tears that stained her cheeks. It’s going to be okay, he said to her. He didn’t sound convinced himself, she could see the anguish in his eyes, the hurt he was trying to hide. She nodded in acceptance. This was it. It was finally over. It was time to say goodbye.

As he let her go, she felt her entire world move away with him. What was she going to do? How would she survive another day? But, she smiled at him. She had to be strong. For both of them. He kissed her on the forehead, their last kiss, their last touch. He walked back towards his car, his steps slow and heavy. As he got into the car, he looked back at her. She kept watching, trying to memorize his face, his deep brown eyes,  his perfect smile, the small stubble on his chin.

The car engine sputtered to life, interrupting her thoughts. As he drove away from her, she felt something inside her die. Tears flooded her eyes, she felt weak in the knees. As his car faded into the distance, she whispered to herself, it’s too late to say goodbye.


Is it as easy to “UNFRIEND” someone in Real Life ? October 11, 2012

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Being mad at people who were once an important irreplaceable part of your life isn’t easy. I’m not the types who gets angry at people too easily, I’m always looking at the brighter side and taking it for granted that he/she might as well be in a situation that I don’t know of.

But, sometimes, it hurts to know that someone you care so deeply for doesn’t even care for your existence!

Is a phone call or message or dropping by someone’s place so difficult in this technology infested age?

It really saddens me and hurts me immensely that I can’t share my joy with someone because they don’t have the time to pick up a call. I want you to be a part of my life, I miss the days when I would talk to you about “EVERYTHING” !

Yes, I am angry!

Yes, I am not taking your calls nor replying to your texts!

It’s because I’ve crossed my threshold of understanding.

But, somehow, even if I think of you today, I have a thousand things to thank you for !

For being my friend when I was all alone, for standing by me no matter what, for being a partner in all my crazy ideas, for being an extension of me and loving me unconditionally !

Because beneath this show of anger, it’s still all the same.

You were, are and will always be the same to me – you’re too precious  to lose !

And as Whitney Houston rightly said, “I will ALWAYS love you !”


This blog entry may seem to be a very normal post, but it wasn’t easy. I rarely express emotions, I have a habit of bottling emotions inside myself, and struggling alone with them.

This is an attempt to open up and let the people who matter to me know what I’m feeling !